I've been putting off writing this blog for a while. I would rather quit typing right now and go to bed. And because I feel that way I believe that I need to write this blog. This is something close to my heart that I have held onto for a long time. So here it goes...
Lust.
You might feel like closing this page after reading that word. Please don't because that means God probably has something to say to you.
Here's the thing. I am a sinner and I struggle with many things in life. Lust just so happens to be an area where I felt(still feel) attacked. A few years ago I began to realize what sort of sin I had fallen into. I felt like I was being buried alive in that hole of sin...and began to climb my way out. The beginning was difficult...actually...It's still difficult. I would love to tell you that I am victorious, that I beat lust and am no longer tempted. But that is not true. It's a constant battle. What I am about to share next is a story about God, and how I felt like he punched me right in the face with his Truth.
For over 2 years I have been struggling with Lust and this year at Youth Quake 2011 I felt like I heard the voice of God clearly. About a month before YQ, I was surfing the Internet and searching for Christian answers about Lust and where I might find answers in the Bible for help. I came across an interesting website that gave lots of awesome help(unfortunately I cannot find it any longer). At the bottom of the page it directed me to a video on Youtube. It was a video of a Pastor by the name of Matt Chandler from the Village Church. I could tell you everything the video was about but I'll show you instead...
This became something that I watched on a regular basis because I had never thought of it in that way. That Jesus died for me, broken and destroyed he still loved me. The Rose began to consume my thoughts.
Fast Forward a month(or so) to Youth Quake 2011.
Everything was going great, I was having fun, learning lots and seeing some awesome bands play. I was not prepared for what Grant Fishbook was going to say. I don't remember exactly what it was that he was planning on speaking on that weekend, all I know is that he changed his course for one of the Main Sessions. What he spoke about was....
Lust.
What. Are. The. Odds. Of. That.
I listened through the message, and it was going great until he said the words "Matt Chandler is the Pastor of the Village Church in Dallas Texas.."
POW.
At that moment I felt like I had just been punched in the face with Truth. This wasn't a coincidence, this was the amazing power of God.
He went on to describe the exact story that Matt Chandler shared in the video I posted above. Even though I had heard the story many many times, I couldn't look away from Grant while he spoke. I had frozen in place and it's quite possible that I didn't even blink for several minutes. I remember looking down at my hand and realizing that I had been clenching my leg so tightly that I was losing circulation.
God was telling me something. He was telling me that he didn't care about what I had done and the sins I had committed because Jesus wants the rose...
If your reading this right now and your feeling like nobody could ever forgive you or love you for what you have done...That is a lie. Jesus died for you, he knows who you are and knows everything about you. No matter what your sins or how broken you feel. He died for YOU.
I felt like this was something that I needed to share. I was scared to. I wanted to hold onto this because I was scared about what people would think. But there it is. If you have anything you want to talk about, know that I will never judge you and I am always open to talk. If this blog spoke to you in any way, you need to share it. There are tons of people who would love to talk about anything thats on your heart.
If your interested in listening to the Main Session that Grant Fishbook spoke on this is the link here to download it:
http://www.briercrest.ca/yq/pastYQs.asp
It should be Main Session #4.
Jesus wants the Rose. He wants you.
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