This is going to be a short blog. Something on my mind lately I just need to write out to help me to understand.
For quite a while I have been praying that I would change into the man God created me to be. That I would stop living normally and how I used to, and start praising God with my life...And I pray this prayer a lot actually. But I feel more and more like I am never ACTUALLY changing. Sure, yea I change how I view my life and how I see things and I'm sure that's part of the journey. But I still feel like I'm not reflecting Jesus in my life as much as I pretend I do.
I remember back when YQ was going on and the short-term Guatemala missions trip was underway, I started feeling attacked. Almost like I was making progress spiritually and suddenly things were getting tougher and trying to drag me down. Sometimes I feel like that is happening now as I am about to go to School. Feelings of worry and doubt creep up, trying to break me down. These doubtful feelings seem to tear at the idea of me not making progress in my journey to truly change my life and reflect Christ.
I'm trying to focus more on prayer and make it a larger part of my life. Through what Chris has been saying on Sundays and what I have been reading I feel like that is something I am really over looking.
Just a short little thought that I think helped to write down.
Later Alligator.
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